I live with my parents, just the three of us. Growing up, I was showered with all their love. Because of a congenital condition, I was told I won’t ever be able to have children. When I opened up about this to my very first boyfriend, Takku, he flat-out told me that marriage wasn’t in the cards for us. I totally assumed that meant we were breaking up, but apparently he thought we were still dating—just without a future together. I really do love him, and being with him is so much fun, but… after my mom told me to think about how I want to live my own life, I decided it was time to confront my true feelings once again.
It was true that I always had a great time when I was with him. I fell so hard for Takku because he would grab my hand and pull me into worlds I’d never known before.
But even if I can’t have kids, I still want to be with someone who wants to stay with me forever… That’s what I realized. So I made up my mind and told Takku that since marriage was off the table, I couldn’t keep seeing him anymore. I just never expected his words to cut so deep—he hurt me far more than I could have imagined.